Hello Lovelies, I know I mentioned in my last post that I have been super busy with a ton of projects lately. Several events have required my attention lately and I have had barely any blogging time. Birthdays, helping friends, and weddings have been consuming my every spare moment just in case you didn't read it. I didn't get to tell you in my last post about a series of amazing events that happened to us when we were on our way home from a wedding. I tried to tie it into that post, but I realized that it needed one of it's own. (Congrats Jordan and Brooke by the way.)
Let me begin by saying that Jereme and I are planners and budgeters. We plan everything out at the beginning of each month and try extremely hard not to deviate from those plans. We plan out date nights and groceries and gas. We even take turns each month getting extra things that we want for ourselves. We also try extremely hard not to be a paycheck to paycheck type couple, but sometimes life just gets in the way of that. I like to think of it as God just reassuring us know that it isn't actually us that is in control. It is him, and boy did he prove that to me here recently.
Last month hit us a little hard in the finance department. We had several unexpected events pop up as well as several birthdays, projects, and showers. Let me also mention that we had already told my friends that we would for sure be at their wedding at the end of the month. We also had told my grandma that we would be stopping by to see her on our way through. We had originally set back plenty of money to be able to afford the trip with some extra left over. But, by the time all of the unexpected events came and went, we realized that we probably couldn't make the wedding because we had run short on money. I was devastated and there may have been some tears. Something I can not stand is someone breaking their word to me. Even more, I can not stand being forced to break my word to someone else. It makes me feel terrible and like the worst friend ever. I literally get sick to my stomach thinking about not fulfilling what I say. I even feel like a fool. I guess I should also mention that it was literally the night before when we realized that we barely had the gas money to go. By barely, I mean we were going to be fifteen miles short.
Jereme, suddenly got a heavy feeling in his spirit that he need to sell one of his video games that (he no longer plays) is really bad. He just kept insisting that he needed to go sell it. So the next morning he got up extra early to check all of his liquids and fuels and check the pressure in his tires make sure that we were all set for the trip. We were going to attempt the trip on faith that God would multiply the gas like the manna and bread. Go ahead and laugh if you must, but we were serious. He got out his portable machine to air up the tires and for some reason it would not work. It seemed that things were not looking up. He left to go sell the game then check his tires at his parents house while I finished getting ready. He called me after he sold the game to let me know that we were now only ten miles short of having the whole trip paid for.
He came back right at time to leave. He walked into my room and was just sobbing, upon which he tells me that his parents had filled up their car with gas for us to take. WHAT?? You guys, how crazy is that? So not only did we have enough money to make the trip, we didn't have to be worried about whether we would eat or not. Eating, by the way, we had decided that we would just opt out of. Of course, I started crying too. When you open up enough to feel God moving around you, it is an overwhelming feeling, literally. That is not even the best part of the story.
On the way home from the wedding, we were laughing and talking about how cute the wedding was, and how I was so happy that I did not have to disappoint my Mimi by not showing up. Out of nowhere, two solid white doves flew a few feet from our windshield directly in front of a mountain. The mountain had a clear path cut from bottom to top and at the top of this mountain stood a huge cross. (I wish I could have gotten the doves in the pic) Jereme and I both instantly became overwhelmed again. We both felt it was God reminding us that it was he who had provided the means for us to make that trip. It was he who was and is in charge of our finances. It is he who was just asking us to trust his promises. Jereme then tells me in that moment that even though selling the game did not provide us much money he felt strongly all day that had he not of sold it then we would not have received the blessing of the trip. It was something that the Lord was personally asking him to do. The Lord had also given him the scripture about husbands sacrificing for their wives earlier that morning; so he knew that it was something he had to do. I suppose that it really does pay to be obedient.
I don't know why I always let my emotions get the best of me, especially when it comes to my finances. I think it is because I easily get sucked into thinking that I am worthless without it. Love of money has been extremely hard for me to overcome. There is a quote from a movie that I am kind of embarrassed to admit to that I love in this post. "Sometimes you're flush and sometimes you're bust, and when you're up, it's never as good as it seems, and when you're down, you never feel like you're going to be up again, but life goes. and money isn't real." That comes from the movie Blow. I equate this quote to how little faith I have sometimes. When I am up, nothing ever is good enough for me and when I am down, it is the end of the world and I instantly panic and worry. None of these are of The Lord. I realize how ungrateful of a person I really am and exactly how undeserving I truly am of His Love. I am so thankful for his grace though. I know that money is the root of all evil, but guess what, just as the quote stated, it isn't even real. If you think I am joking, try trusting the Lord with your finances (and everything really) and you will see exactly how "not real" it really is. If you need money, he will provide it. If you need food, he will provide it. If you need clothes, he will provide it. If you truly have the faith, he will provide.
This incidence is just one of many that the Lord has proved himself to me. I have a journal full of them. I really love getting those confirmations. I feel so loved. How has God shown you confirmations lately? I would love to hear about them. He doesn't have to, but he has surely proved himself to me over and over again. How has he proved himself to you? Comment below or email me. I would love to hear your stories. Let's rejoice and be thankful for these gifts and blessings. may the Lord Bless you today.
“25 Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment?
26 Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they?
27 Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature?
28 And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin:
29 And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.
30 Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith?
31 Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?
32 (For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.
33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.
34 Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.”